You Will Never Hear My Heart Breaking

You will never hear my heart breaking
It shatters into a million pieces
And yet my heart is mute
And you are deaf.

You will not hear my sobs
These cries of anguish that escape
From my soul,
But not from my lips
For my lips smile when you are near
Yet my eyes hide
The tears that will not come out.

My peace is an illusion
As is your love.

But I know
That without my peace
Your world will crumble
And without your love
My world will end.

And so we stand here
Deaf,
Mute,
Blind.

Indeed, love is blind
The heart has gouged its eyes out
For love cannot see
What is truly in the heart of man--
Darkness
An abyss that extends to eternity
A nothingness
That love believes to be serenity,
Peace.

My peace is an illusion
As is your love
But you will never hear my heart breaking

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I wrote this once under a pseudonym, because I did not wish to own the feeling. I denied any association with it. Now, this is my heart on my sleeve, and I dedicate it to the man who has taught me to be strong.