This is My Month

There are times when you simply know something without understanding why it is so.

Like the time I resigned from a stable job, over four years ago, knowing that I would be a writer and yet not having any clients or any means of support back then. Or knowing, when I bumped into an old friend (Paul)--also four years ago--that he would later on ask me out and, in my inner voice's own words, "be my future." Or, now, knowing through every cell of my body that THIS IS MY MONTH... and yet having very little in my wallet or in my ATM.

This is my month, but I still don't know what it will bring me.

If my life moves in four-year cycles, then NOW is the beginning of yet another cycle for me. I spent the weekend reading, researching, dreaming, envisioning, and now I know that there are things I MUST do--not for anyone else, but for ME. (And I shouldn't be ashamed of that.)

I began the day by visiting Paulo Coelho's blog and sending Mr. Coelho himself a message. Why? Why not? (Another fan of his, whom I don't know but who I think is also a writer, just visited my blog this weekend and told me to join the community and maybe start collaborating with Mr. Coelho. Why not, right?)

I also saw a message through a friend's Multiply site that Gael Garcia Bernal is making a movie that will be shot partly in the Philippines in December. There is a casting call... and I sent my resume. I don't really care if I make it or not, but I'd want to be able to tell myself (and my future kids) later on that I was not too chicken to even try.

I've realized that there are things we must do not for their outcomes, but for the process. There are things we must do for the sake of doing them, not for what it will bring us later on. Because very often, it is the journey from which we learn, and not the destination.

This is my month, and I'm inviting you to be a part of it... somehow.

=)